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Thursday March 11,2010

my mother, my world

by Dmkelly16

I lost my mother on June 18, 1998. She was my world, my rescuer and nuturer. a large part of me, my will, died with her. I remember a promise I made to her when I was a child at age four that if she ever left me too, then I would want to die as well.

All my life I had wondered why I was born because if I had had a choice, I would never have chosen to be born. I've been angry with God why we all have to endure one suffering after the other. I've reasoned that if this was a lesson to be learned then I wanted nothing to do with it or nor be a part of anything as a reward after this life.

i am a 61 year old male who has feared adbandonment and rejection all of my life.